a tiny question with big feelings
Will you be my valentine Xara?
I made this just for you.
a tiny question with big feelings
I made this just for you.
Sunflowers for you
From your love Klent
A letter for you
I sat down to write this because there are things I need to say that I don’t always get right when we’re talking. This Valentine’s Day, more than anything, I want to be honest with you about my mistakes, my fears, and how much I truly love you.
First, I want to say I am deeply sorry. I know I haven’t been easy to love lately. I’m sorry for the times I’ve been cold, for the times I’ve doubted you, and for the way I’ve judged you. I know my behavior can be confusing and hard to handle. There are moments when I lose control of my anger or let my emotions get the best of me, and I hate that it affects you.
Please understand that all of this the overthinking, the jealousy, and the moments where I act like I’m trying to control things comes from a place of being terrified of losing you. I wouldn’t be this way if I didn’t care so deeply. I get so scared that something might happen to us or that I’ll lose the best thing that ever happened to me. I know I’m "attention-seeking" sometimes; it’s just because I constantly crave your presence and want to feel close to you.
It hurt me so much when things were said about me being "trash to society," and I am so sorry for the hurtful things I’ve said to you in return. I hope we can move past those words and remember who we really are to each other.
I’ve been waiting for this day for a long time. Last Valentine’s Day, it broke my heart that I couldn't give you the celebration you deserved because I had absolutely nothing back then. It stayed with me, and I promised myself I would make it up to you. I want to cherish this day and you properly this time.
Thank you for staying by my side even when I didn't deserve it. Thank you for your patience with my "bad habits" and for loving me through the mess. I am working on being better, not just for myself, but because you deserve a man who makes you feel secure and happy, not judged.
I’m making it up to you starting today, Xara. You are my world, and I love you more than I can ever put into words.
Thank you for being you, Xara. For the big laughs, the quiet moments, and everything in between.
Happy Valentine’s Day. I love you.
Always,
Klent